Over the past few months, my mind has been a dartboard continuously being hit by a set of darts with the words, comfort zone attached to them. Fortunately, ending a 40 day prayer at my church with a bang, I finally came to the realization of why God kept sending me those two words. It had been over two years since I devoted my life to Christ through the repentance of my sins and through baptism, but did I really devote myself completely? Yes, I put all of the old strong-held sins behind, but did I put away the box that I kept myself contained inside of? The box that I had been so used to that it nearly became my home. I had already set a fireplace down, a set of my favorite books, and a comfortable chair. The box where God was only half way allowed into, because it’s a place where I desperately sought to keep him contained inside of for my own comfort and pleasure. Where we try to keep God contained is where he won’t stay.
During a 40 day prayer with my church, I had finally learned and allowed God to bring me out of that box. It was no longer my home, my to-go-to place, or my relief, it was time for me to pack my things and move, and this time for good. One night during prayer at church, I felt God in my spirit telling me to walk around and pray, I didn’t really understand why either. I remember responding back in my spirit with, “God you know that’s not me. I’m too shy.” Instantly, I felt God respond back in my spirit by saying, “I didn’t bring you this far to be the same person you once were.” He was right. So then, I began to step out, and marvelous things began to take place. I learned how to travail through prayer, I was filled with the Holy Ghost, God even began visiting me in my dreams. So many things happened in such little time, it was nearly unbelievable.
God wants us to believe in Him, but he also wants us to believe Him as well. He wants us to trust his promises, He wants us to trust where he is taking us because it is for our own good. It’s not that He doesn’t know already, the problem is that we don’t. God wants to bring us out of the closets of secrecy, and bring us into a place of joy, peace, and freedom. When God wants you to grow, he makes you uncomfortable. Your fear is what holds you back from His desires for your life. He has laid out His plan for your life on the table, it’s up to you to Trust in Him and allow it to be applied it to your own. What doesn’t kill you, is what ultimately makes you stronger. We cannot continue doing the same things, expecting the same results. May His Love seep so deep into your roots and cause you to branch out in ways that you can’t explain.
“And he said unto them, Why are ye so fearful? how is it that ye have no faith?”
Mark 4:40 KJV